Growing up I had always had a hard time communicating effectively how I felt on certain topics that had importance in my life, whether it be why someone upset me to why certain things touch my heart the way they do. It led to a lot of frustration and confusion for me and others around me.
One day years and years ago, I was in a sort of predicament that was making my feel really edgy. If you don’t know me or how I use the term edgy, I was feeling like I needed to physically do something because my heart was racing and I became very fidgety. I’m not the type of person to resort to physical violence and I honestly can’t think of another way to release that tension other than sex and maybe lifting at the gym, both of which wasn’t an option at this particular time. Lol! So for some reason I put on sneakers and ran out the door.
Now, at this point in my life, anyone who knew me knew that running at all, never mind for pleasure, wasn’t something I would do. I have been athletic my entire life and played on numerous soccer teams, and whenever we had to run I was the one who made the annoying “ugh” sigh.
As I ran out the door I remember asking myself; “ok, this is going to do what for me?” “Where am I even going?” and “Why am I doing this?” Well I definitely didn’t answer any of those questions until I returned home.
I in that small half hour found a piece of mind I can go to gather my thoughts; to relieve myself of the pressure for finding answers and communicating right on queue. I have come to realize that I am really bad when under pressure and I need alone time to figure things out on my own.
Now running has become almost a daily ritual to my life. Not every day do I have time to go running; like everyone else in this class or anywhere, we all have lives and responsibilities that do not always let us get away with our “alone” time or “healing” time. Growing to become the young woman that I am today, I have learned that life does not get easier. It gets much harder but also opens your eyes to new and exciting things. So when I am faced with those tough situations that I have to do something about and can’t come to conclusion with, you can bet that I find my sneakers and take a run. I do my best thinking out there. I know no one is going to call and interrupt me or be there to bother me.
Not to mention it keeps me in shape.
This is just a starter blog, and I will continue to add to this. But I just wanted you to know a big something about me and how I get through life’s day to day issues!
