Run To Stand Still

Run To Stand Still
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Am I getting anywhere?

Why do I feel like I’m going a hundred miles an hour? Why are things going every which way but the way they are supposed to? Do I just not understand myself? I feel as though every single day is getting harder and more confusing. Does this happen to everyone? Does it ever stop? Will I ever feel good about the way things are in my life?

I look down the road and see that I can be happy, but I think I am happy now too. I’m just becoming an independent. I am figuring things out on my own. They just seem chaotic as I figure them out. In the end I’m still me no matter how things end up aren’t I? I ran the distance to see that I might go through changes but I will always be me. I have learned so far that becoming a young adult and deciding for you is not easy. We want the best for ourselves and our future but determining what is the best is what life is all about. We won’t get it right to first time, or the second time or maybe even the 10th time, but we learn from them and seek alternate routes when need be. One way or another we will find our place in the world but it won’t be easy. Life will never be easy. It takes you around in all directions, it shows you all different outcomes and sooner or later one of those outcomes is the one for you. You just have to decide when to stop running from them all.

The closer I get to entering into the Real world feels like falling off the edge of the world if there were one and getting nowhere. I’m breathing and panting heavily but here is no air at times. That doesn’t mean it doesn’t exist. I hype myself up because I don’t have all the answers, but who does? This life is a running marathon; you know that all this suffering will soon come to an end, but getting there takes all the endurance you have. Use every bit of that endurance and you an dI will finally see the light where it never shined for us before.

Wednesday, October 22, 2008

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Wednesday, October 1, 2008

When I grow up...

Throughout high school I wanted to be a Physical Therapist. I had had many sports injuries in my day and been to plenty of Physical Therapy sessions. So in high school I took up a few classes in Health Occupations. For some reason it just didn't keep my interest though. At the end of my senior year I took a few media classes which I really enjoyed because it was fun for me, so that is when I decided to go to college for a communications degree. But wait... In my first year of college I also took some psychology classes and really enjoyed that as well. So I changed my major to Psychology and studied that for the next two and a half years. Now it is the end of my Junior year and I have completely changed my mind again and wanted to go back to Communications.

Finally in my sixth year of college after taking time off and changing my mind when I was almost there, I will be graduating in May. Now, what are my plans for when I do Graduate? I have no idea! I have become the kind of person that really never plans ahead for anything. Mostly because I usually go the complete opposite way of what is intended. Specifically I am not sure what I want to do as a career either. I have a few different ideas in mind, but still don't know exactly what is going to make me the happiest. So my plan is to just concentrate on school and getting my degree for right now. Once I do achieve this goal I then plan on just walking out into that real world and letting it bring to where ever I may end.

All I know is that planning this type a commitment on my own behalf just won't work out because that is just not the kind of person I am and I except that as one of my many qualities.