Run To Stand Still

Run To Stand Still
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Am I getting anywhere?

Why do I feel like I’m going a hundred miles an hour? Why are things going every which way but the way they are supposed to? Do I just not understand myself? I feel as though every single day is getting harder and more confusing. Does this happen to everyone? Does it ever stop? Will I ever feel good about the way things are in my life?

I look down the road and see that I can be happy, but I think I am happy now too. I’m just becoming an independent. I am figuring things out on my own. They just seem chaotic as I figure them out. In the end I’m still me no matter how things end up aren’t I? I ran the distance to see that I might go through changes but I will always be me. I have learned so far that becoming a young adult and deciding for you is not easy. We want the best for ourselves and our future but determining what is the best is what life is all about. We won’t get it right to first time, or the second time or maybe even the 10th time, but we learn from them and seek alternate routes when need be. One way or another we will find our place in the world but it won’t be easy. Life will never be easy. It takes you around in all directions, it shows you all different outcomes and sooner or later one of those outcomes is the one for you. You just have to decide when to stop running from them all.

The closer I get to entering into the Real world feels like falling off the edge of the world if there were one and getting nowhere. I’m breathing and panting heavily but here is no air at times. That doesn’t mean it doesn’t exist. I hype myself up because I don’t have all the answers, but who does? This life is a running marathon; you know that all this suffering will soon come to an end, but getting there takes all the endurance you have. Use every bit of that endurance and you an dI will finally see the light where it never shined for us before.

Wednesday, September 10, 2008

Fun at times... But can blow up in your face: Alcohol

Although I am not very educated statistically on alcoholism, I have been affected immensely by it. It runs through part of my family at which I may be at risk, or even my brothers. I know a lot about how it can tear a family apart and destroy lives; I have lived through it. It started at a very young age for me, an age I would never want anyone to have to go through. I actually would prefer no one having to go through this at any point in their lives.

For the most part, the interest on alcohol starts in your teens. You want to experiment with things, and what better way to experiment new things than on the ones that your really not suppose to put your hands on? Once you get into it whether you’re legal or not, most people seem to enjoy the feeling it gives off. You start to relax, let things go, get your mind off things till later and have more fun; not to mention it tastes really good.

But all these great feelings and such could really blow up in your face. You may take it too far and drink yourself to oblivion all the time, you may become angry, your thinking and decision making goes down the toilet. A lot of things can back fire with this addicting drug that can spiral out of control and cause chaos to you and someone else’s lives.

This blog is nowhere near its final stages for I have a lot of research ahead of myself. Nor will it all be on my experiences. I will for sure add my two cents from personal experience because that’s what keeps things interesting for others; to know the narrator is passionate about something; and I am very passionate on this subject because it involves the people I love.

6 comments:

Anonymous said...

Well done, a very passionate post. I look forward to reading more about this topic.

Tanya Darling said...

I agree with you, alcohol can be fun, but it can also be very dangerous. You seem very passionate about this topic. It is hard not to be passionate when you have family members with the disease. Thank you for sharing such a personal story.

biscotti dana said...

A daring topic. Thanks for bringing it to the blog. I look forward to reading more blogs and hope that maybe your words can help someone out there.

More notes Thursday--see you in class!

DeathwindRising said...

I really don't know how to respond to this. Nice blog though.

Perfectionist World said...

yeh.. it is ok to drink.. but to certain limit..

Perfectionist World said...

I enjoy reading your micro-friction story. Very Interesting!